While playing chess a couple of weeks ago, I realized that I often give up too early in the game. When I do play the game out, a disadvantageous situation often turns around, and some of the time I still win. But, when the going gets tough, I was giving up too easily. The most often excuse I gave myself is that I felt tired. But was I really tired of playing, or, was I just doubting myself? Why do I quit when the going gets tough?
Translating chess psychology and strategy into real life is something I like to do, and so I thought about what I've given up on in the past, and the reason why.
About twelve years ago, back in high school, I gave up programming. Before I gave it up, I really liked it. I had a book that I was following, and I just got to one point and I got stuck. I couldn't go further. So instead of seeking out a solution, I quit. Today I can think of many solutions. Get a different book. Find a teacher or mentor. Try a different programming language. It could have just been a mistake in the book, or a gap in my knowledge.
So now I am back, programming. A little bit. I find it enjoyable once again. I'd love to make a million dollars from something I program some day, but for now, I'm just picking up the path where I left it... Except for now I have twelve more years of maturity, wisdom, and confidence under my belt. It might just make the difference. Plus, perhaps even more important: my moods are controlled. I'm no longer living in a prolonged stretch of irrational hypomania in a stressed out environment.
What have you quit, and why? Is it time to revisit?
Seagull Takeoff Near Cannon Beach, Oregon
Picture taken by me :)
