Monday, August 29, 2011

Phenibut Makes Me Dizzy

I love how phenibut feels except for the dizziness.  When I take phenibut, it completely erases anxiety, and it makes me sleep very soundly.  I get the best sleep on it.  I wake up refreshed the next morning. Except that I am always dizzy the next day.

I've searched the internet, and generally the dizziness is supposedly only associated with high doses of phenibut, but I'm taking low doses.  Usually I only take 540mg, and this last time I only took 220mg.  The 220mg dose was effective, but I still got dizziness!  Now this makes me wonder if I'm super sensitive to it, or maybe when I'm sleeping my body doesn't metabalize it the same way. I could try taking it during the day, and see if I get dizzy, but I don't take phenibut just for fun. I only take it for anxiety. So I'd only take it during the day if I got really anxious during the day... which hasn't happened yet.

It's interesting to note that I didn't have this dizziness problem when I first starting taking phenibut, and I don't know what has changed.  I don't take it every day, and this dizziness occurs even if I only take it once a week.

Anyway, it's just a mystery that I'd thought I'd mention, in case other people have this problem too.  Next time I'm going to try an even lower dose.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

A Doctor who has Bipolar Disorder

It always helps me to read about someone else who's had some of the same experiences as myself, and with that, I thought I'd link to an article about a doctor who has bipolar disorder: Normal is a Place I Visit

So there's some weekend reading, a day or two early.  Enjoy! :)

Saturday, August 20, 2011

You know it's a hallucination when.....

I don't hallucinate, as a general rule, at least not very strongly.

However, when things get weird for me, I start seeing shadows and have minor hallucinations.

A few days ago, I thought I saw a spider crossing the floor. And it stopped when I looked at it. I was so convinced that there was something there, that I kneeled down on the carpet and inspected the spot. No spider.

I told my husband about this, and he said, the clue is that spiders don't stop when you look at them.

How true.

I used to hullucinate that my phone was blinking green (which would indicate a message), or that I heard my phone beep.  The clue I found was that the beeping or blinking would happen after I thought about whether I had any messages on my phone.

In the movie A Beautiful Mind, the main character with schizophrenia realized that his friend wasn't real because her age never changed.

It seems that to hang onto reality, sometimes we have to see if our sensory perceptions agree with logic. If not, we might be hallucinating.

If we know it's a hallucination, then we can deal with it.  It's when we're convinced that the hallucination is real, that it becomes a problem.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Mood Update - June and July

Since in May I said I was going to keep tracking of my sick days, I thought I should let you know where I stand.

June was an uneventful month.  No sick days to speak of.

For July, I failed to keep track of sick days, but I had more than my usual. Business has been slow, and so I've been stressed, and that causes mood problems.  I had lots of depressed days and my mood was up and down.

Now it's August, and I'm going to try to keep track. I'll let you know at the end of the month :)