Tuesday, October 20, 2009
An Anxious Morning
After an episode of anxiety, normality can feel like bliss.
Yesterday, I woke up feeling like something was wrong. I continued to feel anxious, for no reason at all. It was hard to do work. Time went by slower, because I just wasn't feeling right. I kept looking at the clock. I just couldn't get into that moment of "flow" that I usually had.
Two things finally helped. I talked to my love about how I was feeling. That always helps. It also reassured me that nothing really was wrong. That it was just an erroneous feeling.
I also finally took something. I have a variety of pills that I've gathered over time that help with anxiety: Magnesium, 5-HTP, Chlortab, SAM-E, and Phenibut were the choices I had. (All are supplements or over-the-counter.) I chose 5-HTP. I thought it would make me sleepy, but it didn't. It just relieved my anxiety. What a relief, too!
It's interesting to note that anti-anxiety medications tend to work differently in the presence of anxiety (or not).
No Anxiety --> Take Pill --> Get Sleepy
Anxiety --> Take Pill --> Anxiety Goes Away
This is just an easy example to show that the result of the medication is dependent on the initial mindset. Sure, sometimes anti-anxiety pills can make the anxiety go away and cause sleepiness, but that depends a lot on the medication, strength and cause of the anxiety, and the person.
I am a believer in rotation of medicines, especially for anxiety. Take the same thing every time and it may become less effective and you may need a higher dose of it. However, this is not medical advise, just an opinion. Stopping an anti-anxiety drug can actually cause the anxiety to come back even stronger than ever, so I don't recommend that either. Always consult your doctor first.
The prescription medication for anxiety is usually a benzodiazepine, which is a type of medication. Examples are Klonopin and Xanax. Anti-depressants are also sometimes prescribed.
Anxiety is a common symptom that people with Bipolar Disorder experience. It's a difficult feeling... I hope that if you are having anxiety, that it goes away soon! It's nice to be feeling normal!