It seems like I've gone too many days without depression.I should have had at least a little depression this month. But the closest I came was feeling overly emotional for one or two days.
I've been drinking green tea, often twice a day. Eating pecans every other day, or so. Not getting out to walk as much as usual, though. Waking up a little bit earlier than normal. Only sleeping 6 or 6.5 hours instead of my usual 7-8. I don't feel tired. I want to keep going and going. Work excites me. Life seems so happy.
Music has been sounding great too.
I must be hypomanic. But I'm just not feeling any of the negative aspects from it, this time.
I've taking my lithium orotate as usual. No med changes lately.
I guess I'm just feeling happy! Does that mean that I'm gearing up for a big depressive spell? Hypomania is always followed by depression. It's just a question of when. I'm just hoping that I'm not depressed during my Thanksgiving trip to visit my parents. I need all of the normality and strength I can get for that, which is certainly going to be stressful.
I just wish I could know ahead of time when I'll be depressed and when I'll be (hypo) manic. But Bipolar Disorder doesn't work that way. And on some (hypomanic) days I think that maybe I've cured it for good! And that I can go on this blog and tell the world about my wonderful, easy cure. Now that's a dream, or a delusion :)
Hypomania doesn't have to be followed by depression, in my experience. I understand the feeling, though, that what goes up must come down. Perhaps a lessening of the hypomania is all you'll experience? Keep good sleep habits, that's my advice.
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